Blogging seems to be a common thing nowadays with more than half the people owning a blog either private or open. However, the style of each blog is totally different. Some use a blog to update their friends on their daily lives, thoughts and feelings, some use a private blog to have an outlet for their deepest emotions, others use it as an advertising medium for their small home businesses.
Now, what do I use my blog for? At first, I too wanted a place to write down my most private emotions, an outlet and a storage so that one day, I may look back and laugh at my sillyness and wonder why did I ever think that way. However, I realised that cyberspace is rarely secure, the haven I wanted to create could be visited by anyone anytime. Such private emotions if shown to the world would lay me bare and leave me more naked than any physical nudity can. As such, I chose not to create such a blog. These emotions are private and will remain to be so in my heart, mind and soul where they are safely locked away with a key that only I hold.
Why then did I create this blog? It is due to my love of writing. I may not write very well or articulate myself very well but I do love my own writing. It is a way for me to express myself in a thoughtful manner. It is also to give my good friends whom I share this blog with, a glimpse into a different part of me that they may not always see. Some who see this blog for the first time may find I am rather different online and in real life. Maybe I am, however, both personas are still me. They are just different views of me from different angles. Online, hiding behind the screen and words, I am more free to say what I really mean or feel. Comparatively, I seem to have a problem saying what I mean in front of certain people or at times not even knowing what to say. Maybe someday I can finally be able to fuse the two (though there are more). Then perhaps this blog would be discontinued...
Royston Tan
Hiding behind the Blog
