019 Dreams Are My Reality

Have you ever had a dream so wonderful, so beautiful, so vivid that you thought it was real? I had one recently. Perhaps it was my sub-conscious mind cheering me up, or maybe it was a message. Then again, it might just be a premonition of things to come. I somehow wish it was the last option.

Though it is a very private dream, for once, I feel like sharing it. It was a very simple dream, but there was one moment that I remembered very vividly. It was a feeling I never felt before except in this dream. I was walking along the street on my way home. Beside me was this lovely lady whom I just cannot seem to remember the face of. (Perhaps it is a surprise that fate planned for me.) I was holding her hand and she was holding mine. It was this blissful feeling of being in love with someone and being loved in return. It was a dream, but I could almost feel her hand, the softness of her touch and her warmth. I remember having to let go of her hand to do something but she refused to let me go. I relented, so we just held hands and continued walking. She wanted me to clasp her hand with both hands and so I did. She then clasp her hand over mine. Though it was hard to walk that way, it was just a beautiful moment to me.

To some of you this dream may seem too insignificant with nothing much in it. However, I feel different. It was the touch of her hand that conveyed feelings more than any word could. It is a feeling I cannot simply describe with words for words would de-value it.

Perhaps it shows my longing for a one true love, perhaps it is a sign of things to come. I do not know. All I know is, I enjoyed the dream and it brightened up my day.

To the lady of my dream, I don't know who you are or how you look like but you brightened up my life just by simply coming to me in this dream. To live this dream, I am willing to search for you, I am willing to wait for you...

Royston Tan
If only dreams come true...

018 Love actually...

Why do people fall in love? Many do so because they do not want to be alone anymore. I do agree it is a nice feeling to know you are needed and cared about by someone and in return you do care for and need the person. The mutual care and appreciation is something that not as evident amongst even the best of friends. They search for that soulmate who would be there for them when no one else cares. I think it is a good enough reason for me but I slowly begin to realise that true perfect love like in the stories never exist. No one goes living happily ever after.

In spite of all the beautiful images of love that I see in the movies and books, Love in reality is never like that. Love brings with it the many many emotions that we would rather not see, many hidden clauses inside that we would normally avoid at all cost. The lost and confused feeling during the courting stage, the feeling of insecurity of comparison, the fear of losing, the fear of upsetting that special someone, the petty squabbles, the times where you almost give it all up, too tired to go on and when it is all over, the overwhelming feeling of loss and the flood of old memories both good and bad. All these in the insane package of LOVE. Considering all these, it is amazing the number of people who fall in love everyday. Maybe in the end it is worth it if you find that special someone. I won't know, I haven't met her yet...

Royston Tan
You must be crazy to fall in love