It has been a while since I entered this blog. For a while I thought I was just going to let it die off which was actually a good thing. For the friends who actually bother to read it, be glad that I do not blog cause when I blog, it is usually when I am feeling unhappy or bothered. However, here I am blogging yet again and for those who know the reason, all is not really well in my life right now. I need time, to sort things out and think things through but do not worry for me, I will be not be bogged down for long. I will get back a stronger and better person
The many things that happened between this post and the last made me re-think my outlook in life. Many people think they know themselves very well. They knew what they wanted to have, knew what they wanted to be, knew what kind of people they like and many many more... However, I realise that we are constantly changing even if we do not realise it. What you liked before may not be what you like a year from now. However, what is less changing are the things we do not like or even hate. Perhaps it is through a process of elimination, where we go through many things that we know the things we definitely do not want, gradually cutting down the population to the things we want. However, there is a possibility that in the end, we cut out everything, leaving us with nothing. Hopefully neither me nor my friends would live to see those days.
This realization brought me to a conclusion on love. Most of the time, first loves do not work out because nobody starts out knowing exactly what they want. Some do get lucky and meet the perfect one, but for the rest of us, it is a slow painful process where we meet someone, get our hopes up that he or she may be the one before hitting the cold wall when you realise that you have made a terrible mistake. It is not so easy to just let it go where love is concerned. It takes time, the higher the hopes, the longer it takes. Yet, it is through this painful cycle that we actually grow and perhaps when we find the one, we cherish him or her even more. Is there another way? If there is, I would love to look at it, perhaps then I can avoid heartbreaks and help others are facing the same vicious cycle.
Royston Tan
It is not what we want that decides who we are, it is what we do not want that decides it.
